I love these mountains. As life moves forward after our amazing trip to Utah...I have realized how much of my heart is there. It is like I am only living day to day with half of my heart when I am here in PA. I do things Half-heartedly....I don't really devote any time to friends and rarely spend much time focusing on extended family. I feel that I have just been coasting by as far as serving others especially outside of the church realm.
When we were out west I felt invigorated. I felt it was where I functioned the best as a wife as a friend as member. I am not saying I am a terrible person here....I just feel that I have been unhappy here. Not miserably, just unknowingly going from day to day. I love my family...when I am home and with them...my cup overfloweth. When I am away from them, I am a bit lost and in a daze.
I am secretly praying daily that Utah will be the place for us. Mark is working toward this as well. All I know is that change is coming and we are trying to prepare for it.
My heart yearns to be near the people who add to my selfworth and whom I can be myself with. I miss my dear friends....you all know who you are. Thank you for being true friends. Hopefully we will see you again soon. :)
Enough of that....here are some great pictures from our trip. We had such a wonderful time.
4 comments:
I understand what you are writing.... remember the Lord has a plan... Seriously, I understand what you are going through!
Maybe someday it will happen for you guys. I don't think we'll ever live in UT again but it is truly a beautiful place and an extra bonus that your family is there! :)
Sniff, sniff. This made me sad, but I have been there before.
Oh man I feel so bad. I wish we were closer-dang it. I think something has to change for you, because you can't be unhappy. I hope good things come your way!
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