Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Eye openers

Have you ever had a moment that breaks you down to the point you see clearly. I had one just last weekend. a few months ago I was watching a movie that I almost always cry too.....but nothing....I tried to remember the last time I cried......I couldn't.....maybe the last time my mom was here. 2 years!! It had been 2 years since I had really cried. So I was a bit worried...that I might be getting too introverted. I really do keep my emotions bagged up. So imagine my surprise this past weekend when something quite silly happened and I just happened to offend a little girl. My heart was broken. I cried for about 5 hours straight. I couldn't stop the tears....i couldn't stop the heartache. All of the things I have been repressing came rushing in. All I could think was I need to go home. I need to be surrounded by more of the people I love. I need my mom and dad....whom I haven't held in my arms for a year now. It all hit hard and my sweet husband felt overwhelmed that he couldn't comfort me enough to help me stop crying. Needless to say I feel much better now and I am glad that all that repressed frustration with life is out.

I really need some direction right now. Utah is our destination.....where, when, how, and why....are in the lords hands now. Please keep us in your prayers as we try to sell our house.